And now that this scared little girl no longer follows me wherever I go, I miss her. I do. 'Cause there are things I wanna tell her... to relax, to lighten up, that it is all going to be ok. I want her to know that meeting people who like you, who understand you, who actually accept you for who you are, will become an increasingly rare occurrence.... These people who contributed to who I am, they are with me wherever I go, and as history gets rewritten in small ways with each passing day, my love for them only grows. Because the truth is... it was the best of times. Mistakes were made, hearts were broken, harsh lessons learned, but all of that has receded into fond memory now. How does it happen? Why are we so quick to forget the bad and romanticize the good? Maybe it's because we need to believe that the time we spent together actually meant something, that we were there for each other in a time in our lives that defined us all, a time in our lives that we will never forget. I can't swear this is exactly how it happened. But this is how it felt.

NEW LJ NEW LJ NEW LJ NEW LJ!!!!!!!!!
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It's sad to fall asleep. It separates people. Even when you're sleeping together, you're all alone.

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So I watched Amelie and Me You and Everyone We Know.  Both Fab movies...I recommend them highly. I really related to the Amelie character about living in your head and imagination. God I loved that movie!

I love the new Cursive. They are one of my fave bands now and I think they are amazing.

Oh and I am seeing Regina Spektor in concert so I am excited.

8 days till I leave for college. And i haven't even begun to start to pack. opps

The last couples of days have been spent journaling, painting, watching endless amounts of degrassi, taking walks, watching endless amounts of movies,listening to music,staying up till 2 in the morning watching the history channel then sleeping in till 12 in the afternoon. I am pretty content....

which is good since everything is going to be turned upside down in a few days but I am looking forward to it. 

I found you find strenght in your moments of weakness
For once I'm at peace with my self
I've benn burdened with blame
Traped in the past for too long
I'm movin on

I've lived in this place
And I know all the faces
Each one is different
But they're always the same
They mean me no harm
But it's time that I face it
They'll never allow me to change
But I never dreamed
Home would end up where I don't belong
I'm movin on

I'm moving on
At last I can see (Last I can see)
Life has been patiently waiting for me
And I know there's no guarentees
But I'm not alone
There comes at time
In everyones life
When all you can see
Are the years passing by (are the years passing by)
And I have made up my mind
That those days are gone

I've sold what I could
Packed what I couldn't
Stopped to fill up on my way out of town
I've loved like I should
But lived like I shouldn't
I had to loose everything to find out.
Maybe forgiveness will find me somewhere down this road
I'm Moving on
I'm moving on
I'm moving on

So this is what my name means:

• Although the name Sara creates the urge to understand others, we point out that it causes you to be emotional and temperamental.
   
• This name, when combined with the last name, can frustrate happiness, contentment, and success, as well as cause health weaknesses in the fluid systems, liver and the bloodstream.

   

• Your first name of Sara has given you a quick-minded, sensitive nature.
   
• It gives you a clever, creative ability in art, music, singing, or drama and an appreciation for refined surroundings.
   
• Your sociable nature expresses affection, kindness, and thoughtfulness to the extent that it is difficult for you not to be affected by others and governed by your emotions, rather than by logic and reason.
   
• As you respond to love and encouragement from others, your romantic and dreamy nature can easily lead you into love affairs.

do you agree?

The fact that I have a livejournal, a myspace AND a facebook
can't be good for me

I need to go out and live

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[	music	|	nelly furtado	]

-A few days ago went to the beach with Molly,delilah,heather,sean,joe and jarv. It was great to be back at the beach. How I have missed the watching the waves hit the tips of the sand,and the feeling of sand between my toes and the smell of ocean and cotton candy in the air. The beach calms me. I grew up on the beach. Summer vacations with the family...one time when we at least tried to act like a loving family. 

-Yesterday was great. Went to Boston with my lovers Amanda,Kat and Tom. I can't express how much fun I had. Did tons of shopping which as a girl I can't get enough of. I think I have a problem but whatever. Went to the Garment District which is the coolest place on earth and Tom scored some mighty fine avaitor glasses. The heat was like the heat in hell. I think I sweat 10 pounds off plus the fact that we walked everywhere and I mean everywhere so I feel phsically fit. Just missed a stabbing at Fanuel Hall which was disappointing and then ran to get our train which we almost missed.(we should try to do something like once every week kat?)

Times like these remind me how lucky I am to have the friends that I do. I know that I am really loved my a wonderful group of ppl who I love back and I wouldn't trade that feeling in the whole world. I feel sorry for ppl who don't know what that feels like. 

-I have learn a few things about you in the past couple of days that make me angry.I don't even know how I feel. Everything is so complicated. I hate how you treated me the last month or so but still want you in my life b/c before everything started you were a good friend. The fact that the last time I might ever see you was when we all walked out of the gym and i watched you walk to your car alone at 5 in the morning, scares me to death. you have ruin certain songs and places for me b/c when i hear or see them I instantly think of you and I don't want to. Yes i hated how you treated me in the end but what I hated most was how I acted,just hanging on to something that wasn't there. I have been on a few dates and begining to move on. I want you in my life and at the same time I don't.

 -That new paris hilton song is so annoying but so catchy.

 - Everything is changing. Sometimes I wish i could stay in the summertime splashed happiness.

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I love my bitches!!!!!!!!